not going to give up

really dont think i can give up ,
this is something that i think i should do, to prove to the many that i can stick by and get this done.
was told by my manager that i have to buck up...took some sick days off...am escaping the inevitable...that life in london will be monotonous unless i do something to change it.
so, guess what i decide to do..take acting lessons..well first one, is on sunday.
the second thing i do, is decide to start cooking. yes, although this was slightly attempted in Japan, now, there is a secret passion to learn how to cook dishes that even blue peter would have to take a day to prepare "one they made earlier."
i thought maybe with a blog, i would be able to write some itneresting things. however it kinda depends on the mood your in. if your ina good mood, the blog you write becomes exciting, like a guitar with new strings being plucked! (love my metaphores)....but if ur ina shitty mood, its really like the dull clouds and cold rain that london offers too often...(so what do you think?)
much of my mood depends on little things...
- work? not at all..it might be shit, but i know that its not the "be all and end all"...
- life away from japan - used to be, but getting used to it...
-girls? kinda guessed it...have a girlfriend now, who although being a lovely girl, seems to influence my every mood. maybe this is karma that i deserve given my track record with the oriental express. now i find myself with one who can, quite frankly, give me my own medicene...
but those who know me, know that this is one thing that i dont give up on, and yes il fight on. However as i think about my journal which i kept for the two years in japan, its kind of frightening how many times you write about personal problems, rather than comment on the wonderful times your having....
....so best to change my ways and be positive. there are many good htings to life...like the ability to book the most random things on the internet, to give a homeless person your cup of coffee when you realise that you dont really need it....when you lose your phone..and say f-k it cos you never really call those people anyway...when you slowly realise that you CAN do what you want...

i promise the next one will be a blog!....i.e. what iv done that day...
if you really want to know about an accountants life that is!!?!?!?!?

group of the day - "the perishers" a funny name, and maybe fitting due to the music they play. borderning on the cheesy american slow lovers rock, with a bit of coldplay twist (shut up amit...think your blabbering....)