mask on mask off

I rumbled in my pocket and heres what I wrote a while ago, I think, probably in a drunken frenzy.

“don’t give in everyone,
Life seems to pass you by
But don’t give up till you’ve won
The battle between you and life’s lie
The lie that they make us believe
To choose the narrow and straight
Where it is the many we should weave
……..

Then I cant read the rest…
It brings to the imagination a scene of a train, chugging along, with completely dead faces that are opposite each other. Each individual, with each unique story of life, temporarily wearing the same mask that is worn by all when getting on the tube. A face of no expression, of “I don’t exist”, of not wanting or wishing or sighing or winging, but just nothingness.

As if they came from a place so dark, that their memories are gone, and they have temporarily joined a system that transports them from A to B without actually seeing anything through the distance.

Don’t you have an urge to just take of that mask. Be yourself. Smile a little at a memory of long ago and look out of the scratchy window to see life. Don’t hide behind a phone or music or newspaper. Look at someone. As my acting teacher says, (don’t laugh!), create a moment between you and the stranger. You know he or she exists but will you acknowledge their existence.

Or is there an invisible wall between you and them and technically you cant see over it, so really you are in your own box, as they are in theirs. Is this how you want to spend your life? Selfish and in your own world? Do you not care for others? Be lost then in your own black hole and go to some dark corner where you live the world that was made for you and notice things that you wish to, and discard those who you care less about. I have no time for you!

its hot..think the heat got to my head...