half a year in a blink of an...

I wake up at some crappy hour to have the feeling that i need to write something again. Maybe its the fact that my throat has dried up and refuses to let me sleep with its constant reminder that its itchy! Yes i have a cough, a flu and a fever...though maybe a fever is all of that. The old chest hurts. Iv turned 25 recently, well two months ago, which seems to be taking its toll. iv already started mumbling at the loud mouths in the cinema, tut tutting at the people smoking outside and looking disgracefully at the smal portions of scallop that a sea-side restuarant decides to deliver.
Yes im complaining, finding fault with everyone except me. This cough is because of the rain, not because i didnt have an umbrella. The restaurant is over priced, not expensive. Everything is not my fault!
Anyway 6 months, one birthday, one trip back up to the land of the rising sun, one marriage and one colour green for envy at the life my friends still have there...anything else? one car crash and an ill dad later, along with final moving out and regretting the fact that i cant actually live out, seems to be the sum of my life ....a greek tradegy?? i think not, an epic tale of romance,??well, its been emotional but it always is being a libra.
Il leave you with a picture of something i decided to when i was out there. A friend of mine, free spirited and very daring, jumps off without a stutter.with his 2 year old kid and wife cheering him on.... it Took me a hundred times to actually say "carpe diem" and carry through with it..but i did it...i jumped!